Prayer from the Heart

Dear Lord

i come before you with sin in my heart. i admit that in the past few weeks i have been bitter about the most wonderful thing that happens to man. i admit that i thought only of the world of my heart instead of the bigger picture of your kingdom. but Lord it hurts more than i myself comprehended it would..... i was preparing myself for this..... so i should by default be absorbing it with the lightness of heart... but that was not the case..... my heart hurt, my eyes welled and my eye bags sunk... it painful......Lord i support their union from the deepest of heart not because its the christian thing to do but because i truly, earnestly do because i have no belief in my heart that he shares the same feelings that i have for him...... i am wishing him all happiness and love in this life. who knows how much blessings i have missed in the past year because of my ignorance...... anyways it reminds me of you love for us..... you love us just as much but the sad thing is that we never acknowledged it in our lives...... instead we run after everything else except you....... my sadness reminds me of your sadness. the deep wounding of your heart aches as you watch those who you sacrificed yourself for go astray ignorant of your love. father like i am hopeful of your coming and i am hopeful that love will be mine one day. so i thank you for that which is and that which has been and that which will be...... thank you Lord for in Jesus name i Pray

amen.