i feel left out..... its like everyone around me has had some experience at love. they have gone through the whole journey and i haven't even started mine cause "Cupid" i am still waiting. to be honest my heart is hurting now and i think i am breaking a cardinal rule but anyways here goes. i am hurting because the one i supposedly like has found his other half. my heart swells with pain thats mixed with anger, jealousy, anguish..... it so mixed that i can even put to words my feelings. anyways back to questioning Cupid..... i think i am a decent girl, maybe a little on the heavy side but have seen other girls who are a little on the heavy side and have boyfriends. why no me? it like Cupid skips me on the queue. it like this....... imagine a line of Girls waiting to see a gynecologist and when its about your turn he passes over you and sees another girl. its getting personal to me why am i being passed over...... whats do they have that i don't have...... why are they special.....?
just to side track a little..... i find that i can explain myself when i write...... when i try to think about it i cant even put my feelings into words but when i start writing..... it pours.......
its crazy! i have a desire to love and i wait eagerly for the opportunity to do but i am passed over time and time again..... its painful its hard to endure..... cant help but be all high school about it...... GOD STOP PASSING OVER ME........ PLEASE DON'T IGNORE ME....... SEND HIM ALREADY!
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