anonymous in reality

"ANONYMOUS" it could have the implication of both good and bad. Good in relation to political agenda and bad in the sense of feeling "ANONYMOUS". I am never much for politics, so yeah you guessed right i am feeling very "ANONYMOUS" at the moment.

There is that longing to be known and wanted but then again given my situation i don't think much can be done. I don't feel much of a person to be desired, wanted, needed, appreciated. Yes, i have God with me, yes i know he cares and is beside me all the time but theres the need for a human touch. There is a hunger that needs to be satisfied within me. I am hurting because my situation is not helping at all.

Sometimes you cant help but feel ugly in Asia especially when practically everyone around you is below American dress size 10. I am not hating but hurting. i feel "ANONYMOUS" amongst the beauties that surround me.

You might say lose weight then, do something. well to be honest and just so that you know, we fat people hate the way we are and want to do something about it, but it is hard just like it is hard to quit smoking. We hate that we carry so much on us, we hate the fact that we can not wear the latest trends and enjoy the joys of life like everyone else because we are cocooned in our little world thats occupied by our excess luggage, our excess weight. Whats worse is that we are judged and not seen for the beauty that we are (inside).

We are not given the opportunity to blossom. There is so much to us that the world misses and we miss. We have feelings, we are smart, funny, witty, we have dreams that we want to share if given the chance at love. We want to be love, we want to be touched, we want to be seen beyond the blubbers that protrude out of our dresses. see us for who we are . Stop hating and start loving, you never know the healing you bring into our lives.